A lot or just enough?

Once again, I didn’t think this through.

For a few months, money was scarce, so I decided to cut most of the expenses, including takeout. 

Tonight, since we had a bit of money left, we ordered something, which led me to get too much food and overeat.

My brain is still in scarcity mode, and I felt I should get as much as I could while I could.

Now, I’m too full and can’t move, and it’s my own fault, of course.

This is a pathetic situation I’m in: I could’ve prevented myself from overeating if I thought for a moment that since I already ordered more, I’d have some for tomorrow.

It isn’t an easy way to think, and it goes back long ago in time. This way of thinking makes sense when you don’t know when you’ll eat next. That’s a sad reality of many, unfortunately. It doesn’t make sense in my situation, and yet, I’m foolish enough to think I’m the victim here, somehow.

Thinking there’s not enough in the world for many things in life is counterproductive and can limit our options. I’m not talking about all situations we can encounter in the world: I don’t know everybody and can’t speak for them, so I’ll limit this mindset shift to me as I should be concerned with my personal well-being instead of trying to change others first.

So I tell myself this as a reminder: you have enough. Calm down and breathe because right now, you sure can’t. 

Keeping an open mind on abundance is something I struggle with, but I want to improve.

What do you think? Let me know.