Know yourself and see what works

Well, today, I got coffee again… yeah…

I realized that having coffee isn’t that bad after all. After trying multiple times to quit and succeeding for a while each time, I feel I’m becoming a version of myself I can’t really appreciate. I’m generally too slow and feeling more depressed even when I don’t really have a reason for it.

We all have our struggles in life, but the first thing to consider is knowing yourself, and by the look of it, I now know that coffee is both delicious and helpful for my scattered brain. It doesn’t mean I’m not as forgetful, but I know I have more drive and the will to go forward when I have my cup of joe in the morning. The very occasional stomachache is worth it just for that.

My brain works in weird ways and makes connections that are frequently counter-intuitive. It is what it is, and I gotta say I enjoy it. Being OCD, coffee is my self-medication, and I consider this an acceptable addiction as long as I don’t get it by IV drop.

Knowing who you are doesn’t necessarily correlate to what you can achieve (it’s only a fraction of the equation) but giving yourself tools, like the reminder app on my phone, so I don’t forget to write that cheque or pay that bill, is part of what can help you become better.

I prefer not to shame myself for getting some coffee for the boost it gives me and admit it helps instead of lying to myself by thinking and saying it’s just for the taste … I may not be correct. I accept that, and I think it translates to other things we do in life that we tend to shame ourselves and others for what we do or don’t do.

Let’s find what works for ourselves but still with a critical eye: I don’t want to drink 12 cups a day again just because I want to. I’m also not talking about a more severe addiction, so we have to consider that.

What do you think? Let me know.