When I get overwhelmed by thoughts these days, I’m a bit less concerned but still a bit worried about the “how” to do things. The priorities are still high on the list of worries.
The other day, I needed to do some cleanup in the office room (yeah, I’m still working on that). I’m glad I’m a little bit more observant now because when I started to look at what I could pickup or reorder, I felt I was going to be sick after someone told me a very bad news: I was frozen in place with so much disgust and horror, I couldn’t think straight. Then, I immediately felt extremely tired.
We all know we should listen to our body a little bit more every now and then. When we feel tired, for example, it’s normally for a reason. We then go and rest if we can and it solves the problem.
In the cleanup situation though, I wasn’t really tired even though my body wanted me to believe that. My brain was actively trying to find a way to avoid the task at hand: I was amazed, to say the least.
The urge to go lay down or play a game was so strong that it was aching.
I understand that not everyone is the same and I’m only explaining what I went through in case it can help someone else.
I proceeded to pickup one item, test if it was still working and then throw it out. I did the same for a few more objects and then stopped.
I know it’s not much, but to me, it feels like a success: I was able to act and push through a bit more. I also now understand how my brain is trying to trick me.
In all, I’m grateful I could witness this reaction and do something about it. I think it should help me next time… because, yes, there will have to be a next time for the cleanup!