Reflection on growth and time
How growth and awareness helped me so far with my time management
It's been a while since I last posted and I wasn't sure I had the right to keep writing, oddly enough.
I’m not entirely sure where this belief comes from but I wanted to acknowledge it and not simply dismiss it because by simply hiding it under the rug and pretending it’s not there, I’m not dealing with the emotions involved and the growth that could come out of analyzing this.
Growth is an interesting process: of course, it’s growing, but growing what? If I described it with emotions, it would be a feeling of space expanding within the body so more experiences can be stored there. I like that it has no end: it’s just a constant expansion, like your lungs taking in air when you take a very deep breath.
I used to think that I needed to grow no matter what, but the more I think about it, the more I want to be deliberate with it: I don’t feel the need to learn everything as much as before, and I also don’t want to have a narrow vision on my objectives. This is particularly interesting since I have many interests and ideas. It doesn’t mean I can’t do them all, but I have to be more mindful about what I can do and when because the time I have is precious and can’t be spent at random.
The feeling I had before, telling me I “have” to do it all, was mostly caused by my inability to focus long enough AND most likely my time blindness. These two contribute to a lot of hassle and worries.
By having a more focused view on my goals and a more deliberate approach to the actions to take or not take, I find myself more in alignment with the projects I need to complete.
The time blindness is a big deal and was, in part, making me think I could do anything and everything, all at once. Wrong! I can do a lot, sure, but time flies so fast and I didn’t realize it fully (still can’t fully grasp it but I’m getting better). The impact that the speed of time has on my life is immense.
Time is like a train that never stops: once you realize and feel it rushing by and pushing you aside by its immense force if you’re not ready to jump on at the right moment, you can feel the importance of it a bit more.
I’m still working and studying this as I evolve into a better version of myself and would like to know if you have examples or suggestions regarding time blindness or pressure and how it affects you or what you do to make things better.
Let’s chat!